It’s been 5 months since Paula has passed. Every day is a struggle. Some days are worse than others. I have noticed I’m changing. My temper is getting shorter. I also find it better if I’m by self. Well, Meshi helps me calm down. She is my rescue cat. She has been sleeping next to me for weeks now.
I also am returning to work this week. However, I have changed companies. I though as a couple I have to many memories of the old firm. To many laughs.
I also have noticed that I get very emotional easier now. I lie in bed and just let my mind wonder. It sucks. I have really bad nights of sleep. I’m up several times a night. I hope it will get a little better.